1869 Contradictory Heart
Diao Tianyi stopped lit a cigarette, took a sip, and said to himself: "Hey, this time passes so fast. I am fifty years old in the blink of an eye.
Jinzhu is twenty-five years old. When I was in college, I seemed to be twenty-one years old, right?"
The wind started to rise outside the window, blowing the yellow leaves on the trees all over the place. Looking at the flying leaves outside the window, Diao Tianyi said silently in his heart: Meiyu, I once promised to marry you, but I did not fulfill my promise. You came to my house, and my mother humiliated you well at that time. I hid in my room and didn't dare to come out to see you. I am a coward, and sometimes I really cruel to myself.
It was me who harmed you. You have a spirit in heaven. Bless our daughter to take back the Tiandi Group Company again and make her the president of the company. This is her daughter’s wish, and this is also the first time she begged me. No wonder I fell in love with her and asked Jinzhu to be the partner of Diao De. It turns out that Jinzhu has the shadow of your beautiful jade on her body.
Meiyu, I defiled you, but I did not marry you in the end. For the past twenty-five years, I have been feeling guilty in my heart. I often see you complaining about me in my dreams and crying to me. If Hua Tiancheng did not reveal the mystery of Jinzhu's life experience on the day of Jinzhu's marriage, I would never know that she was our daughter.
Jinzhu has an angel-like face and a devil-like figure. She looks like you both, but her personality looks like me. My daughter has my personality and is destined to be an ordinary person. Jin Dashan also went there. Have you met long ago? As long as my daughter can recognize me, I will take good care of her. Repay my debt to you twice to my daughter...
Meiyu, after you died of illness, I didn’t even go to your grave to press a shovel of soil. I feel so ashamed! I have been retribution. Although I married the daughter of a powerful family, I am not happy. I love you, but I don’t have the courage to marry you home. Your family is from the countryside, but my family is from the city.
In that era, the city and the countrymen were very clear. Many people looked down on the countrymen, so if you marry me, it would be a bubble. In fact, my current wife is not beautiful at all, and I don’t love her, it’s just a good match. At that time, I let down my love and knew that you were dead, I secretly cried for a long time.
Thinking of this, tears came from Diao Tianyi's eyes. Lin Meiyu's beautiful figure on campus often ran out of his mind from time to time. Sometimes he would be stunned with an inch of Lin Meiyu's photo in his diary, letting his thoughts fly.
Meiyu, I wrote many of my words to you in my diary. Most of the confession I have for you, that is my atonement for you.
I know you have suffered a lot of grievances and have children before you get married. You married Jin Dashan with our children. Now I don’t hate Jin Dashan anymore. He is a good person. He married you in the most dangerous time and raised our children.
Now our daughter Jinzhu wants me to kill Jin Dashan's biological daughter, who is also the only daughter. What should I do? I hurt you twenty-five years ago, but now our daughter is going to hurt Jin Dashan's daughter again.
Although I agreed to Jinzhu, I couldn't bear it! Jin Dashan shouldn't die. When he was alive, we were competing in secret. I was always digging his corners and stumbling him in business. I was really ashamed of him. When I knew Jinzhu was our daughter, I realized that I was wrong.
Jin Dashan helped me support my daughter, but I treated him like that. I, Diao Tianyi, is still a personal person? I feel so conflicted! If I don’t help my daughter achieve her wish, she will never recognize me as my father for the rest of her life. What should I do? Should we repaid our grudges twenty-five years ago now on our descendants?
Jin Dashan is already dead. I can't do it if I kill his daughter and take his company. Do I really want to be a person who will repay his grudges and revenge? I have already promised my daughter, but I regret it now. I am worried about my daughter's future. What if Hua Tiancheng comes back and doesn't let her go?
Although Hua Tiancheng looks really kind, if he becomes cruel, he can do anything. I should thank him for saving Diao De's life, but I, together with Xu Zhicheng, kept suppressing him. Sometimes, I feel that I am so tired of living! Fighting for fame and fortune may be a waste in the end.
Recently, I saw several celebrities die, and I suddenly felt that life is quite short. When I live, I worked hard, this one is not enough, and that one is not enough. I have to earn to the death for fame and fortune. But when a person dies, he can't take anything away, and everything becomes an external object. Come naked and go naked.
Only now do I understand that savings, villas and luxury cars do not belong to me, but only this body belongs to me. I suddenly feel that I have lived in vain at the age of fifty, and now I understand how to live. I am used to being a bad person and suddenly wanting to be a good person, but I am a little uncomfortable with it.
I am really tired, my heart is so tired. People live in this world and it is not easy for everyone to live. Everyone has their own sorrow and happiness. If I kill Jinbao for Jinzhu’s wish this time, I will never forgive myself for the rest of my life.
I always feel that Hua Tiancheng is not dead. The result of my evil deeds is to cause trouble for myself. I wish Jinzhu could be a carefree and kind girl, but what she said scared me.
Those who put their own happiness boat above the tears of others will never get real happiness.
Maybe if Hua Tiancheng and Xu Zhicheng die, I will feel more at ease. If either of these two people lives, it will be my nightmare. I don’t want to die, but if I am not careful, I will force myself into a dead end. If I die, can all this be managed?
No matter how capable a man is when he is alive, if he does not educate his descendants well, his tricks and robberies will be lost one by one. I will only understand many principles of being a human being when I was fifty. I now understand how to live, but I was forced into a dilemma by my own daughter.
Chapter completed!