Not good?

When I heard these three words, I seemed to understand something in my heart. Huang Tianba had already said: "I heard that the war in the north is tense, and the line from Yunzhong to Fengling is almost lost."

"What?!" I was shocked: "How could it be so fast?"

I had always said that the war in the north was very tight, but I never expected that the fighting would be so severe. In just one or two months, the entire line from Yunzhong to Fengling was about to be lost!

Huang Tianba said in a deep voice: "He must go back now, otherwise——"

Otherwise, the north may——

My heart is beating very fast and chaotically.

He should have expected this day to negotiate with the southern forces and get rid of Shengjing's control. However, he did not expect that because of Nangong Lizhu's plan, everything would come to a dead end so quickly. He could only do

Such a choice.

Just fight, that’s all!

My fingers were shaking so much that I couldn't hold the bowl steady. I looked up and saw Huang Tianba looking at me worriedly. I forced a smile and wanted to say something, but I didn't know what to say. In order to cover up my

In a panic, I stretched out my chopsticks to pick up a piece of braised bamboo shoots and put it in my mouth.

This time, the fresh fragrance of the bamboo shoots suddenly disappeared, and an unspeakable nausea suddenly came up. I hurriedly covered my mouth and retched.

"Qingying?"

Huang Tianba looked at me in astonishment: "What's wrong with you?"

"No——"

I retched twice before I finished speaking, and acid water came out of my mouth. It felt very uncomfortable. I bent over and it took me a while to calm down.

Mu Hua stared at me and suddenly said: "Are you pregnant?"

"..."

I raised my head and looked at them with some embarrassment. I was silent for a while and nodded.

Suddenly, her expression became a little strange.

Huang Tianba immediately frowned and said to me: "Qingying, you - why didn't you tell me earlier?"

I smiled apologetically.

Along the way, I did not tell him, not because I didn’t want to say it, but not because I didn’t want to say it, but because I didn’t know how to say it. I left that man and paid almost the price of my life, but I could never get rid of him in my heart.

The traces left in my life, and now, I am even pregnant with his child. Even I am a little overwhelmed by such an ending. What should I say?

Maybe it's because now that he has settled down and he has returned to Beijing, his body's reaction has increased. I didn't finish the meal at the end, and I couldn't eat anymore. I was helped back to my room.

, servants soon sent me some anti-fetal medicine and food, and some taboo things in the house were also removed.

But the nauseating feeling still lingers in my chest.

I lowered my head and looked at my lower abdomen feebly. The suffering these days had really wronged this child. When I reached out and touched him gently, I could even feel him trembling slightly.

How did you feel when you found out that he left?

Do you feel a little overwhelmed?

Slowly, it started to tremble as if it was not my child, but my fingers. They seemed to be so cold that I could only hold them tightly to let myself know that I was still conscious.

He is gone.

Really, gone.

After hiding for so long, being afraid for so long, all I have been looking forward to is this day, and this day has arrived early. Facing everything in front of me, I feel unprepared and at a loss.

With this departure, will everything between me and him finally come to an end?

He didn't even know that he had such a child.

Thinking of this, I lowered my head and looked at my belly again. It has been more than three months, and my belly is actually slightly bulging. It's just because I'm too thin, so it's not obvious. But this child, living like this carefully, seems to

I am also afraid that any change will cause him to disappear forever.

"He's gone..."

When I spoke, my voice was as dry and hoarse as if I was crying, but I was clearly calm, I just felt a little empty in my chest.

Maybe I will start to get used to this feeling.

He's gone...

"But, I'm here with you."

I have never been a cruel person, and I don’t want anyone to feel the pain of separation. However, after so many experiences over the years, and the child I lost, they all tell me that such a choice may not be the right one.

Good thing.

There are only monarchs and ministers in the imperial city, and there is no great ethics among people. I don’t want to see my children take that path, and I don’t want my children to become power puppets who have no happiness and cannot even free their souls under the power struggle.
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The two major prisons in life are either being trapped by love or being trapped by things. I have been trapped in the former all my life, and he has been trapped in the latter his whole life. Even if he enjoys all the glory and wealth, and stands at the pinnacle of power, he has never experienced true happiness.

I just hope that this child will not follow in our footsteps.

"We will live well."

The anti-fetal medicine was slightly bitter, but it also had a soothing effect. I leaned on the bedside and fell asleep unconsciously.

When I wake up, it will be getting late.

The servants delivered the food and soup directly to my room. They were polite and I simply used some. After they finished packing, night fell.

I rested for a while, but it was still a bit stuffy sitting in the room, so I simply went out to get some fresh air.

It was still quiet in the garden, and the sound of gurgling water seemed particularly pleasant in the night. The moonlight turned into sparkling waves on the clear spring, shining in front of my eyes, complementing the candlelight on the stone corridor, and giving this quiet house

It adds a quiet atmosphere.

I was quiet in this night, and suddenly, there was a noise from the other end.

Yes - over there at the Jingshe.

I frowned and subconsciously walked over there.

The candlelight was still flickering in the room, and I could see the silhouettes of the two people reflected on the bed. As soon as I got closer, I heard Mu Hua's crying voice saying, "Explain it to me clearly."

"What exactly do you want me to say?"

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"Say! Say-" She sobbed for a long time, and then said: "Is that child yours?"

"What did you say?"

"Is the child in her belly yours?" Mu Hua's voice seemed to be going crazy, with a bit of a roar, and loudly said: "If it's not yours, why do you care about her so much? Why do you want to bring her back?

?You go out for several months at a time, so you have a private meeting with her, right? She is no longer with the emperor, so she follows you, right?"

When I heard her words, my brain suddenly exploded.

What did she say?

Could she doubt——

It wasn’t just me, the atmosphere in the monastery suddenly froze, as if even the candlelight was suppressed by something heavy, and it no longer even flickered. I seemed to feel Huang Tianba’s almost suffocating torment.<

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After a long time, he spoke, his voice no longer as deep as usual, but with a kind of bone-chilling coldness——

"Xue Muhua, what kind of person am I, Huang Tianba, in your eyes?"

My heart trembled.

This was the first time I heard him call his wife by her first and last name, and that kind of chill almost made a person's blood freeze. It was so deep that it penetrated the bones and the heart, and even the soul couldn't feel any warmth.

The cold.

"Tell me, what kind of person am I?"

"..." Mu Hua didn't say a word, just kept crying.

"Say!"

I looked at the figure on the window that was shaking like a leaf in the wind, and I could almost imagine how desperate the light would be in those charming eyes.

"In your eyes, this is who I, Huang Tianba, am?"

"..."

"I'm merciful in every way, I'm lustful and greedy, I'm open to men and women, and I'm just lying to you, Xue Muhua, right?"

"..."

"If I am such a person in your eyes -" His voice suddenly paused, but it was not that he was speechless, but it was as if he was choked, with a trembling of despair, and he remained in a stalemate for a long time.

, and finally said slowly: "Then there is no point for us as a couple to continue doing this."

As soon as these words were spoken, the other person in the room suddenly seemed to freeze.
To be continued...