In an instant, the color on my face faded, as if all the blood in my body had been frozen into ice in an instant. I shook my head: "No, no——"

"Qingying."

She called my name, with a look of helplessness on her face. She stretched out both hands to gently hold my weak hand. Feeling the trembling from the deepest part of my heart, I raised my head.

Looking at her helplessly and sadly: "I don't want it!"

She frowned slightly and said softly: "Qingying..."

I couldn't hold her hand tightly because I couldn't exert any strength in my arm, so my fingers could only struggle to entangle with hers, saying: "I didn't come out of the cold palace to stay here, no!"

Although I have no way to leave now and can only stay in Jingren Palace as a temporary solution, I know that I can't always be like this. As long as I have the opportunity, I will definitely try my best to leave here.
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Because, I want to find my Li'er!

My daughter, she has been away from her mother for so long. Just thinking about this almost exhausts my efforts. How can I tolerate myself again——

Thinking of this, my eyes turned red: "Queen, I don't want it!"

When she listened to my words, there was a hint of intolerance in her eyes. After a while, she said softly: "I know."

"I, I even dream of leaving..."

"I know."

"I don't want it, I really don't want it..."

"I know."

She didn't seem to know what else to say to comfort me. She could only keep repeating these words, but there was a kind of sadness that made me want to cry. She looked down at my hand, and after a while she calmed down.

He said lightly: "But, I still want to ask you something."

I raised my head and looked at her: "What?"

"You and the Emperor...really, are you really not going to look back?"

I looked at her anxiously.

There are many people in the harem, colorful and fragrant, like flowing water, slowly flourishing in this iron harem, and then quickly withering away, but she is the only queen who is not like a peach blossom drifting away in the water, but standing like a stubborn stone.

In the rivers and lakes, I have no intention of competing for favor and love, and I don't care about wealth and wealth. I just look at the love and hatred here with a cold eye. Therefore, maybe she is the only one who will still remember what happened between me and that man.

Things.

Sweet, tender, painful, desperate...

Only she would ask this question.

Me and him, will I look back again?

Thinking of this, I let go of my hand and smiled faintly. It's not like I haven't asked myself this question. I once firmly made a decision, but then overturned it repeatedly. People have grown old in this kind of torture.

.But - after I jumped off the dragon boat in Huyue Gorge, I never thought about the answer to this question again.

Because, I no longer ask myself this question.

I raised my head and looked at Chang Qing's eyes as clear as autumn water. After thinking for a long time, I said solemnly like her: "Queen, I have something to ask you, and I hope you can agree to Qingying."<

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She was a little surprised. I didn't answer her, but asked her something.

"You said."

"Qingying, I have never wanted to implicate the Queen, nor do I want you to be harmed in any way. So, under this premise - if one day, I am one step away from the palace, I beg the Queen to help me with the last step.

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"..."

There was a shocked expression on her face, and she looked at me in astonishment with her eyes wide open.

And I, without any hesitation, looked at her firmly.

"Are you serious?"

"Yes."

"..." She was so shocked that she couldn't speak for a long time. I don't know how long it took before she finally returned to normal. But when she spoke, her voice was not as calm as usual. Instead, it was filled with a trace of trembling.

He said: "Okay."

"..."

"I promise you!"

I looked at those twinkling eyes and smiled at her: "Qingying is here. Thank you, the Queen, for your grace."

My hand was once again held by her, feeling warm and cozy.

Life passes by in a hurry for decades, like a white horse passing by. But in such a wandering life, there are always one or two people who have nothing to do with romance, love, grievances, or hatred. They have nothing to do with you.

Although you are not related by blood, you can give everything you have to him. Just a word, a look, or even a knowing smile is worth a thousand words.

Even after many years, I am still surrounded by red walls, even if I really have to face the last step, I even feel that even if I cannot take this step, there have been such things in my life.

People who have appeared, stayed, and known each other have made me have no regrets in this life.

I don’t know how long Chang Qing stayed with me before I woke up, but she also looked tired, not only physically tired, but also seemed to have a lot of heavy baggage in her heart. I repeatedly urged her to go back and rest, and she

After giving me a few words of advice, I returned to Jingren Palace.

As soon as she left, Nanny Wu and Shui Xiu came into the room immediately.

As soon as they saw me sitting on the bedside, Aunt Wu hurriedly came over to help me scrub a little, and then gave me some soup from the Imperial Pharmacy for me to drink. I drank it obediently and was about to retract my hands under the quilt.

Go, but Shui Xiu grabbed my wrist: "No."

"Huh?"

I looked at her with some doubts, and Shui Xiu said: "Sir, you have a wound on your arm now. It will be very itchy. If you put your hand back under the quilt, you will scratch the wound unconsciously when you fall asleep, and it will open again.

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"Ah, but when I put it outside, my hands are very cold."

"So, let me help you warm now."

After Shuixiu said with a smile, she sat on the edge of the bed and held my hand with both hands. Aunt Wu finished clearing the soup bowl, looked at her sensible look, and went out with a smile without saying anything.

The warm temperature spreads from the fingers again.

Seeing Shuixiu's considerate behavior, my heart warmed up. I recalled that Chang Qing had been holding my hand just now, so I smiled and said, "Did the Queen Mother tell you this?"

Shuixiu was stunned for a moment, lowered her head and said nothing.

I originally asked casually, but looking at her look, she seemed to have something to hide, so I immediately asked: "What's wrong?"

"..."

The child glanced at me again and turned his head to avoid my gaze.

I became more and more confused and stretched out my other uninjured hand to grab her: "Shui Xiu, what's going on? Tell me!"

She bit her lower lip, as if hesitating for a long time, and then finally turned to look at me and said softly: "Girl... I didn't ask the Queen to tell me."

"Who is that?"

"Yes -" There was a troubled look on her face, and she glanced at me again. Finally, as if she had made up her mind, she looked out the window to make sure there was no one around, then she leaned down and whispered in my ear.

He said lightly: "It's Liu Qinghan, Mr. Liu."

"What?!"

I suddenly raised my head: "It's him?!"

"Yeah."

I couldn't react for a moment, and I was stunned for a while before asking again: "Is it really him?"

"It's him."

"..."

I only felt that my breathing was disordered, and even the heartbeat in my chest was disordered. I felt like I was still in a dream - in the dream just now, he was still standing in a piece of cold white snow, looking at me with cold eyes,

I couldn't touch it even if I stretched out my hand, but when I woke up, it seemed that the cold winter had suddenly transitioned into the warm spring of March. Shuixiu actually told me that it was he who told them to take good care of me like this.

This gap between dreams and illusions made me feel a little at a loss.

"Sir, what's wrong with you? Your face is so red..."

Shuixiu reached over and touched it, and immediately said: "Ah, your face is so hot. Do you have a fever?"

"No, it's okay."

I waved my hands gently, trying my best to calm down, but found that it was all in vain, my heart was beating so fast that I felt a little panicked.

It was him, it was he who told me to take good care of me...

Shuixiu was sitting on the edge of the bed looking at me, but for some reason, her eyes looked a little serious.
To be continued...