"You choose me, okay?"

After saying this, I shut my mouth tightly and even my breath was suffocated. I just looked at him with my eyes wide open, and the hand holding his fingertips was almost cold.

Qinghan never looked into my eyes, but from my angle, I could clearly see that under the thick eyelashes that were trembling slightly, it was like ice and fire were entangled and intertwined in those clear eyes, constantly tearing apart.

Holding his soul, every moment is a torment, no less than the torment in my heart.

You choose me, okay?

How bold do I have to be to ask these words and put my life and life into his hands? His words can make my life radiant, and the same words can make my life as beautiful as a man's.

Prick a sharp knife into my chest and make my life dark from now on.

After an unknown amount of time, he finally slowly raised his head, his dark eyes looking at me steadily, but like his voice, his gaze kept trembling——

"I...choose you..."

……!

My heart suddenly felt like it was going to explode, and the hand holding his finger almost convulsed: "Qinghan——!"

"I choose you!"

"..."

"Then, where do we go?"

For a moment, I was so happy that I was almost crazy, and tremblingly said: "I, let's leave here, let's - we - go find -"

"Looking for Li'er, right?"

"Yes!" I nodded vigorously - my Li'er, my daughter, no matter how long she is imprisoned or how much time passes, I will never give up on finding her. And if I find her, I can be by my side.

With him, then—then what else do I want in this life?!

Thinking of this, I felt dark for no reason.

Then, I slowly looked at him.

He also looked at me, his eyes indescribably clear: "In these years, Li'er will never come here alone."

"..."

"I heard someone said that Princess Li was kidnapped."

"..."

"But the reason why you're not too worried about Li'er being hurt or gone is because you know that the person who kidnapped Li'er won't hurt her and will treat her well, right?"

"..."

"Then, who is next to Li'er?"

……

Who is next to Li'er?

When I heard this sentence, I felt as if a long-dusted door was suddenly pushed open, and a spotless figure in white as snow stood there, suddenly appearing in front of me.

Who else can be around Li'er?

Pei Yuanxiu, the prince who was only one step away from the throne, the "Mr. Yuan" who wielded a sword for me in Dongzhou City against the barbarians on the grassland... was also the one who smiled faintly in the quiet air of the Tibetan Pavilion and talked to me calmly.

That person.

He is also the one who rescued my Li'er, who has disappeared for so many years.

Why did Qinghan mention him, and why did he mention him at this time?

Thinking of this, I looked at him more and more uneasily. Qinghan asked calmly: "The person next to Li'er is the prince from back then, right?"

"Yes, it's him."

After asking and answering, Qinghan stopped talking. I raised my head uneasily and looked at his flashing eyes, asking: "Why do you know about him? Who told you?"

"..."

I suddenly seemed to understand something - things about Pei Yuanxiu have become taboo in the palace. Even if Shen Gongye wants to talk to him, there is no need to talk about these past events. Being able to talk about these things in front of him makes me feel happy.

The only reason why he was so hesitant and even thought of quitting was——

"Pei Yuanzhen told you, right?"

He didn't speak, but his eyebrows slowly twisted into the character Sichuan.

This time, I completely understood.

No wonder he has always been so aloof towards me. Even when he and I are alone, it always feels like we can't get completely close. That's not my illusion, but his hesitation.

"Actually, it's not just the eldest princess," Qing Han said in a sweet voice: "I have also heard of this prince a long time ago. I heard that he has excellent appearance, gentleness and elegance, and has the demeanor of a gentleman. He was a lecturer at Pinxiang Academy.

That student also praised him for his outstanding virtues."

"..."

"The eldest princess told me that when everyone was giving you a hard time, he once spoke up for you in public and contradicted his mother. Later, when he left the capital, he was alone. The only thing he took with him was a book you gave him.

."

"..."

"She also said that in fact, he fought the battle in Dongzhou five years ago for you."

My heart suddenly sank.

Of course I have not forgotten everything that happened in Dongzhou, but at that time, I lost all my memory. I had no idea what it meant for that person to appear next to me, but I only regarded him as a good friend. When he was fighting bloody battles on the tower, I used

My body resisted the iron arrow for me. Apart from being grateful, I still knew nothing except my doubts about him.

It wasn't until I recovered my memory that I realized that I had always owed a debt.

A debt that is almost impossible to repay.

Thinking of this, my eyes became a little hot and red. I took a deep breath and raised my head to look at Qinghan: "What do you mean by this?"

"..."

"You want to say that you are not my only choice, right?"

"..."

"Are you trying to say that I don't have to be Liu Qinghan, right?"

Qinghan was silent, the intertwining of ice and fire in his eyes almost made me feel pain just looking at it, and my chest was also throbbing with pain. In the end, he seemed to have made up his mind, raised his head and looked at me, word by word.

The meaning of the words: "Lightness, I am not the best."

"What?"

"I'm not the best."

He repeated it again, his eyelashes drooped slightly, and his eyes became dark.

When I heard this sentence, I frowned and suddenly understood.

Is this the reason why he has always been hesitant and indifferent to me?

Because he was the one he loved, he felt that he had to be the best in the world to be worthy of him. And when he came to Beijing, all he saw were royal relatives, nobles, sons and grandsons of dragons and phoenixes. For him,

I can't possibly know how much pressure a fisherman from a fishing village feels, but Shen Xiaokun's words of "mud legs" have always made him resentful. I can understand how much.

Thinking of this, I calmed down and said, "So, who do you think I should choose? Him?"

He didn't speak, but when I said that I wanted to choose "him", every deep groove between his eyebrows was filled with suffering, and his pale, almost bloodless face looked increasingly melancholy.
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"Qinghan, tell me, what is the best? Who can be the best?"

"..."

"I know tens of thousands of people, but in terms of appearance and character, they are not as good as Huang Ye; in terms of profound knowledge, they are not as good as Fu Badai; in terms of overwhelming power, they are not as good as the supreme leader of the dynasty; in terms of bravery and martial arts, they are not as good as the prairie prince.

"On the scheming city..." I paused, a chill rising from the bottom of my heart. I only said half of this sentence before swallowing it.

"There are so many best ones, should I choose them all?"

"..."

"You are right, you are indeed not the best, and he is really good. He has sacrificed a lot for me, even Li'er... He risked his life to save Li'er.

."

"..."

At this point, I choked up a little: "I owe him so much."

Qinghan was so quiet that he could hardly even breathe. He just looked at me like this, his eyes as dark as eternal night.

I looked firmly into those dark eyes and said slowly: "Some people are kind to me, and I will be grateful; I will repay what I owe others, even if I am born with a grass ring in the next life, I must repay. But there is one day

Personally, he treats me well, and I feel that I deserve it. I owe him something, and I don’t want to pay it back. I want to ask him for more. I even want him to give me the rest of his life.

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To be continued...