When our boat left the north shore and headed south, it started to rain.

The winter rain, even in the south of the Yangtze River, is cold. I was sitting in the cabin. Even though Susu saw the drastic change in my face and carefully half supported and half hugged me, she still couldn't suppress my slight trembling.

When the boat docked, it was already getting late, and the whole world was shrouded in a silver-gray rain curtain, which seemed depressing and low. Su Su and Gu Ping didn't speak any more the whole way, and both of them carefully supported me. They just left.

When you go up the steps of the pier, you see a carriage parked there, and a white figure standing beside the carriage, holding an umbrella.

As soon as he saw me, he immediately came over and said, "Qingying."

I raised my head in a hurry and saw that familiar, gentle face. Pei Yuanxiu seemed to notice something strange about me immediately, frowned slightly and said, "What's wrong with you? You look so ugly?"

"..."

I didn't say anything, I couldn't say anything, I just looked at him like this.

He also looked at me for a while, but did not ask any more questions. Instead, he reached out and took me from Susu's arms: "Let's go back first."

I was carried into the carriage by him, and he still held me in the carriage. He listened to the rolling wheels all the way, and soon returned home. When he held an umbrella and sent me back to my room, I had just walked onto the long road.

I didn't look back, but said with a slightly trembling voice: "You don't have to send me off, I'll go back alone."

"Qingying." His voice sounded from behind: "Aren't you going to tell me what happened today?"

"..."

"My bride is so unhappy, can't I know why?"

"..."

I stood on the edge of the corridor, and I could even feel the coolness of the misty drizzle falling on my face. I slowly turned around and saw him standing behind me holding an umbrella, his eyes gentle and gentle.

Firm: "Shouldn't you tell me if anything happens, and be the first to let me know if you feel any pain?"

I was looked at by such gentle eyes, but it felt so painful.

It hurt so much that I almost cried.

When I spoke, my voice was broken: "Do you really want to marry me?"

His eyes flashed: "What?"

"Don't marry me."

"Qingying!"

"Anyone who comes close to me will definitely not end well."

"Qingying!"

"I am an ominous person, I will bring disaster to the people around me."

His eyes suddenly narrowed and he looked at me with dark eyes: "What nonsense are you talking about!"

"I'm not talking nonsense."

The hot tears finally fell uncontrollably, and I could hardly stand. When Pei Yuanxiu saw that I was so fragile that I was about to fall, he immediately threw away the umbrella in his hand and hugged me.

I was shaking violently in his arms, tears gurgling out like broken beads, and I choked and said, "I'm not talking nonsense. I hurt them, and I will hurt you too."

"Qingying!"

It's my fault, it's all my fault.

If it weren't for me, Qinghan wouldn't have lit that fire in Jixian Hall. If it hadn't been for that fire, he wouldn't have been injured, wouldn't have been hit on the head by a pillar and lost his memory... And Chang Qing wouldn't have lost her.

children!

I just remembered that when she was just pregnant, Yan Wuyu said that there was a sign of the defeat of the Food and Shang Star in her destiny. In order to protect the fetus in her belly, there should be no large-scale sacrificial celebrations in the palace.

Fireworks are especially taboo, and when she saw the fire and heard the guard report that I might be in Jixian Hall, she suddenly suffered from abdominal pain. But even at that time, she kept asking people to put out the fire and confirm that I

Whether it's inside or not, by the time the imperial doctor comes, there's no way to save it!

My eyes were blurred by tears, and in the haze, I seemed to be able to see the white snow in front of Jixian Hall. She fell in the snow, her body covered in blood!

No wonder, no wonder I felt so uneasy when I saw the fiery red maple leaves in Yihua Hall on the day I found out she was pregnant...

It turns out that everything has been determined long ago.

It was me who hurt her!

And...

There is also a slight cold!

When I think of the four curse-like words in Fu Badai's mouth, I feel like my heart has been hollowed out, and the man who hollowed out my heart no longer remembers me!

He forgot about me!

He forgot about me!

Seeing me crying and shaking in his arms, and listening to my choked confession, Pei Yuanxiu remained silent until I finished speaking, then he held me in his arms forcefully. The strength of his arms almost made me suffocate, but he could

Feel the ups and downs and warmth of his chest, and his gentle voice ringing above your head——

"That's not your fault."

"..."

"You are not wrong."

"..."

"Qingying, you are kind, but you can't blame yourself for everything."

"..."

"You cannot bear the consequences of what others do for you, because humans are human beings, not Buddhas, and cannot be without original sin. If we have to look for the root of everything like this, there will be sinners all in the world, and no one should die.

."

"..."

"Only when a person dies can such sins be completely eradicated."

"..."

"But if you die, I will be heartbroken. Isn't this your sin?"

His words seemed to wake me up. I gently raised my head in his arms, looked into his eyes, and heard him say: "You are hurting me by rejecting me. Isn't this another sin of yours?"<

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"..."

This time, I was finally speechless and could only look at him with tears.

Although he didn't speak, he could feel that my breath was not as desperate and helpless as before, but still mourning. He simply picked me up, carried me back to the room, and carefully placed me on the bed.

The room was very warm, and the coolness brought by the rain just made me tremble a little. He carefully pulled the quilt and covered me, and said softly: "Don't think too much first, have a good sleep.

You are so sad now that you think about everything."

He is right, I am indeed too sad.

I curled up in the quilt and nodded gently. He reached out and stroked my cheek, brushed away my hair, and said softly: "Go to sleep and talk about it when you wake up. I will stay with you."

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"...Hmm."

In his gentle gaze, I closed my eyes.

Even in my dream, I could still feel his gentle gaze, which seemed to dispel the terror in my chaotic dreams. Although there were so many chaotic scenes in the dream, I slowly calmed down. Waiting until

When I woke up, I felt a lot more relaxed.

And when I turned my head, I met the same look.

Pei Yuanxiu sat on the bedside, lowered his head and looked at me gently: "You're awake."

I looked at him vaguely for a while and murmured: "Are you always here?"

"I'm afraid you'll have nightmares."

As he spoke, he helped me get up and sit on the bed. I didn't know how long I had slept. Although my spirit was calm, my body was a little limp. He turned around and brought a cup of hot tea to my mouth for me to drink.

Went down and felt a little more comfortable.

"Are you feeling better?"

I nodded gently.

Indeed, I was too sad and was a bit over the top. Even in the past, when I was about to marry Qinghan, those village women talked about me in a filthy way. I also knew that I was just a victim and should not be blamed for what I had suffered.

Injury means being cut into pieces. It’s the same this time. I shouldn’t have been loved and cared for by others, so those accidents should be piled on my head.

Just——

Thinking of Chang Qing's miscarriage, I still feel a lot of pain in my heart. I have experienced such pain, and I know better the impact it has on a woman, and I am not by her side. I don't know how she can survive that period.

How much pain does she have?
To be continued...