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"No matter how he lives his life, it is all the child's own choice. I am not qualified to make irresponsible remarks."
When Emiya Kiritsugu's old father said this in a calm tone, what kind of state was he feeling in his heart? Hoshikatsu, who didn't have time to use his mind-reading skills, didn't know.
However, even without the use of mind-reading skills, Xingke can be convinced that this is a lie.
"Screw your nonsense, don't you worry about regretting it in the future?!~" Xingke had already dismissed such nonsense as early as the 21st century:
"Also, regardless of whether you are qualified or not, the question I am asking is [what do you want to say], what do you want to do, what do you want to achieve, and what do you want to be? These are all topics that have nothing to do with [qualifications]."
"It doesn't matter what I think, the child's life is the child himself. No matter what I say or do, it is the child himself who makes the final decision. What I want to get and what I want to be are more of my own problem.
Why do you have anything to do with that child?" Emiya Kiritsugu said a rather long rebuttal for the first time.
"That's not the case, Kiritsugu." Xingke continued to deny: "Don't you understand yet? No matter what you want to say or what you want to do, it will have a profound impact on the growing Illya.
Whether you want to be respected and loved by Ilia and what kind of father you want to be are all closely related to what kind of childhood Ilia will experience in the next fourteen years.
You are no longer alone, Kiritsugu. You are a father, you are a member of a family, and your thoughts are very important."
"I am……"
"Who are you?"
"..."
Maybe he didn't expect Hoshikatsu to suddenly bring up such a serious topic? Or maybe he was overwhelmed by the heavy pressure that suddenly fell on him, and Emiya Kiritsugu was suddenly speechless.
Yes, this is also part of the contract he has made with Xingke invisibly. Before he can save the world and achieve his own justice, he has to be a father and raise Illya in another world.
"Emiya Kiritsugu, in the original history, you only spent seven years with your daughter and wife, but you never abandoned your ideals and responsibilities for a moment, and lived for them wholeheartedly. During these seven years, you
I have been preparing for the Holy Grail War and sacrificing my wife..."
In the competition to find Tou Mei in the scene of the name of the moon, the clues can be seen from one of Illya's answers when Emiya Kiritsugu bids farewell to Illya.
"This time, the secret arrangement allowed me to take away the seven years before the Holy Grail War and give you the fourteen years after the Holy Grail War, which is almost double, and I have no worries in my heart.
What dissatisfaction can you have in the past fourteen years that makes you look so sad now?"
Hoshikatsu's words were like the whipping of thorns, making Emiya Kiritsugu's shameless heart instantly drip with blood.
Objectively speaking, Emiya Kiritsugu was a beneficiary in every aspect, but he himself always looked like a victim.
He implicated countless innocent people, made the girl who admired him, and made the wife who loved him sacrifice himself. When he finally got everything he wanted, he himself looked gloomy now...
He is like this...
"...He is simply a despicable person."
"correct answer."
Xing Ke put his hands together and gave a loud slap:
"Congratulations, Kiritsugu, you finally understand what self-knowledge is. You are one step closer to graduating from Chuunibyou. Please continue to work hard in the future."
"That's too much, teacher." Emiya turned around and faced the star with a bitter smile.
"Haha, you don't understand this. Emiya-san and teachers are mostly over-the-top creatures. Their responsibility is to wake students up from their childhood dreams or pull them out of their childhood nightmares.
"Xing Ji showed a rare serious expression.
"...Teacher, maybe you are really suitable to be a teacher." Looking at Hoshikatsu's slightly serious expression, Emiya Kiritsugu blurted out this comment out of nowhere.
Although Hoshikatsu had long emphasized that his age did not match his appearance, Emiya Kiritsugu had never felt it, and he was not used to it when Hoshikatsu became serious.
However, Xingke's serious expression turned out to be short-lived. After being praised, he immediately turned into a silly smile and said in a very exaggerated and modest manner:
"No, no, no, it all depends on how well the teacher teaches. Whether a teacher teaches well or not mostly depends on whether the teacher teaches well or not."
"Is that so? What you said makes sense."
I don't know if it's because of his glasses or something else, but Emiya Kiritsugu's expression looks much softer now than before.
But at this moment, he suddenly lowered his head slightly and said calmly: "Then, Teacher Cavendish, my daughter will also be entrusted to you."
Then he seemed to see the little baby in Xingke's arms, and added: "Well, the older daughter."
However, no matter how much he added, it was not enough to make Xingke feel relieved: "Stop, stop, stop, Emiya Kiritsugu, what are you talking about? It's weird!
Let’s bring the topic back to the beginning. Do you think it’s okay to let your biological daughter waste her life on me?”
"Why do you say it's a waste?" Emiya Kiritsugu raised his head and asked calmly.
"Because even if she gave her life to me, I can't give her my life. It's unfair, isn't it? It's a waste, isn't it?" Xing Ke said it as a matter of course, like a playboy.
declaration.
A slight extension of this statement is that even if your daughter regards me as her only one, I cannot treat her as her only one. This is simply a terrible statement.
Emiya Kiritsugu was not told all the secrets by Hoshikatsu, and in the era in which Emiya Kiritsugu lives, monogamy has become the mainstream, so Hoshikatsu believes that he should have some negative reactions.
However, the fact is
"Then, teacher, my answer is still the same as at the beginning. The child's life needs to be decided by herself, and I am not qualified to interfere."
Emiya Kiritsugu gave an answer that seemed inconsistent with the answer at the beginning, and then added:
"Besides, even if you try to stop it, it must be in vain, right? That child has worked hard alone and now has her own likes, dislikes and ideals, and has the power to carry out what she thinks is justice... In this way, on the path she has chosen,
Yes, I can't do anything more for her.
Chapter completed!